RaVae here,

I’m a recovering food addict. Here’s a little of what my life use to be like.

I knew that food played an important role in my life. I was even willing to admit that many times it was number one and often controlled me. I remember one of my last binges, maybe my last, my memory around food is oftentimes hazy. I was taking a class at the local college. I weighed over 200 lbs at the time, and was getting ready to take the 20-minute drive home. I was hungry. I was always hungry, and needed a little something to tide me over until I could get home for lunch so I decided to buy a large two scoop ice cream cone (the thought of a single never entered my mind. That only lasted for the first third of the drive. (Keep in mind my drive home was only 20 minutes) Then I stopped at another fast food place and ordered a burger, fries and a “diet pop.” Now, how I thought diet pop was going to help, I don’t know. While I was waiting for it to be prepared, which seemed like an eternity, I went next door to the little grocery store and purchased a couple of candy bars to help me make it until my hamburger was done. At this point, my memory became hazy as it often did during binges, so I don’t remember if I ate more or not.

From about the ages of 13 to 33, when I started my food recovery, all my waking and many of my sleeping hours were spent in a life threatening battle between primarily two thoughts: one is how to get food, and the other how to stay away from it. For me, one was just as dangerous as the other because both blocked out what life is really about, which is those I love.
That was 20 years ago

Check out my homepage to get the rest of my story and what i did to recover.

To get to my homepage click on my name and then homepage link it will take you there.

Why not share them here?

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I wanted to ask the same question. I think you could help us all!

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When I began my journey19 years ago, I answered yes to every one of these questions this let me know I was a food addict!

Do you have more than an occasional episode of binge eating?
Yes, i binged all the time. The only time i did not binge was when i was sleeping then I dreamed about it.
Do you eat when you’re not physically hungry?
Physically hungry i don't think i have ever been really, really hungry in my life, but I alway felt like I was starving
Do you feel disgusted with yourself and/or guilt and shame after binging?
Disgusted every night when i went to sleep I prayed to not wake up.
Do you generally feel depressed?
Yes, i was either on the ceiling or in the toilet.
Do you isolate to eat?
Boy, did I, I considered me, myself and I a party of three.
Do you frequently attempt to lose weight and fail?
I tried every diet i ever heard of.
Do you eat large amounts of food throughout the day?
I could eat and eat and eat and eat, the eat some more.
Do you eat much more rapidly than others?
i even had people comment on how fast i ate.
Do you continue eating when stuffed?
Feeling stuffed just meant go lay down tell you can eat more.

I heard recently that over a million people are on a diet or starting one. I used to be included in that million, but my diets did not last long.
This is the beginning of my journaling about what has changed in the last 20 years. On July 8 2006 I celebrated 20 years of being on a liv......it and not a die..............it.
One of the first things i had to do was quit dieting. Dieting for me meant it was going to end. And what i needed to find was a way of eating that i felt i could do “one day at a time” for ever.
my beginning weight was 200+ it took me about 8 months to get down to 140 i bounced between 130 and 140 for 18 years.

on july 21 i will celebrate 2 two years of finding what it takes "for me" to stay at 128 give or take 2 lbs for two years.

Ravae, that is copied and pasted from your blog. Are you trying to sell us something? or do you really have this wonderful story to share?

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Do tell us!

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my blog is the jump of point for my story. so as i share i will referr to my blog a lot. i don't have answers for anyone but me but.... as i share you can decide if my answer might also be your answer

thin and serene for us all